Addictions

I have a secret and I am going to confess it.  I am addicted to gaming.  Now, if you are part of my family reading this, this will not come as a shock to you.  However, it is still hard to admit that I need help to control this addiction.

Now, some may think, 'So what?  Big deal, it's just a game.  It's not like it's alcohol or drugs'.  Some addictions seem to be acceptable in society.  Things like coffee, or sugar....or games.  Well, let me share from experience that gaming addiction can be no less dangerous than drugs or alcohol - the effects and consequences may be different, but there is an element of danger to ANY addiction.

Anyway, here's what's interesting to me.  The more addicted I became to 'social' games, the less social I actually became!  Ironic, eh?

I have loved games since I was very young.  ALL games.  Board games, physical games, card games and video games right from the first Atari and pong.  Part of it probably has to do with my competitive nature.  But I've come to realize another part is to do with something that drives all of us - a sense of belonging or community.  And boy, do these game sites understand that!

While my marriage was struggling and I was ignoring some things I needed to work on in my own life, it was very easy to get lost in my gaming world.  Most addictions have nothing to do with the addiction itself.  I've found they actually all fill the same need in different ways - a need for comfort and to 'escape' the real world.  As my marriage is healing - and is already healthier that it has ever been! - and as I face my own shortcomings and work on myself, I am finding it easier to put gaming in it's proper perspective.  And as I confess and yield this addiction to my Heavenly Dad, He not only comforts and cares for me, but blesses me in ways that are unique and special to MY likes and desires.  How awesome is that?!

So, I will continue to enjoy my games, but they are put in their proper place as entertainment and not life consuming.  Besides, I can't play games and crochet at the same time....