Sunday, 26 February 2012

Open Hands

I guess I need that reminder about how blessed I am sooner than I thought.  Last day of vacation and I had my cell phone stolen.  I didn't just lose it or misplace it...someone actually took it.  I was so heartbroken and mad when it happened.  It's not just the cost to replace the phone, or the fact that I am so mad that someone could be so cruel while on vacation, but I realized just how personal my phone was to me!  So many special notes I had.  And I also had a lot of partial songs that I was working on in one of the apps, and I had some special pictures (from this vacation) that had not been saved yet.  And it's feels like such a violation to have something just taken from you.

However, as I got over my initial hurt and anger, I started to think about the reality that I should not hold onto anything in this world too closely.  Was it really that traumatic?  Frustrating and hurtful, yes, but I know that nothing here will last forever and I cannot take any of these things with me when I die.  So, as I thought more about it I felt that there was a lesson here for me.  Another reminder that there are so many things that are completely out of my control.  Was I willing to cling so desperately to my phone that it would ruin the rest of my time with my daughter, or effect my attitude in a long term way?  No, I didn't want to do that.  So, as much as it still hurts and still angers me a bit, I let go of my frustration and started to think about what my next steps would be.  And the phone, at least, can be replaced.  And how blessed I am that my husband is already looking into how we can get me another one right away.

So, thanks God for gently nudging me to make better choices.

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